When T died, besides the overwhelming sadness of having lost someone I love dearly, I felt this very real sense that in his short life, while I was always there, I never did anything ... special. Everyone had all these "special" moments. I felt like I wasn't really all that instrumental in his life. I was just ... there. Somedays I still feel like that.
Most of us go through life wanting to make some impact on a life. I'm really afraid all that will be said of me is that I was always there. And maybe that is special, but sometimes all that feels like is ... dependable. I don't want to be remembered as dependable.
Hopeless
I've was trying far too hard
To be what I thought I should be
I was playing wild cards and
Seeing things that weren't in front of me
Like a little tiger, play fighting,
I was hurting myself, again and again
KT Tunstall - Hopeless
To be what I thought I should be
I was playing wild cards and
Seeing things that weren't in front of me
Like a little tiger, play fighting,
I was hurting myself, again and again
KT Tunstall - Hopeless
About Me
- Forbidden Noir
- Just Left of Center, Midwest, United States
- I've always hated describing myself. So, lets just say, I am dedicated to learning, a great friend, an awesome listener, and one of the biggest BNL fans on the planet.
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